sharing moments

why am i feeling like this..
so down,
saying like no moral.
very sadistic to everyone especially with my words.
lazying here and there.
and at the same time being very sensitive.

why why why.

i just feel like hiding at one corner of the room where no one can find me.
so that i get time to reflect why i should and behaving something like this.
maybe i just need time to adjust myself.

i feel so draagg..
People around me keeps on blaming me.
Maybe i went quite high for everything previously.
settle down hani.
maybe u just need to aid yourself with more working hours and less outing.

yeah maybe that would aid me by behaving so not me.
i use to smile to others and not sarcastic them.
maybe i went too high and didn't notice about it.

now, i end up puffing again.
give me a moment to adjust myself please.
dear allah, please forgive me.

dear dad and mom, i just don't understand why you still treat me like a little girl again.
no this and that.
i just want need the trust in you that i can take care of myself.
it's not that by going home late everyday, but i think some excitement usually happen after 12am. Im understand what is wrong and right.
i just need that time to chill out instead of staying at home after work.
at the same time i also want to enjoy.
just imagine morning go to school, follow by working. then reach home. Daily same routine.
it's like keeping those lil prob here and there in a tiny whole to a huge whole.
what i ask for is ur trust that i can take care of myself.

it's hard to be a big sis who always trying her best to do what she can.
it's really hard to handle 6 siblings.
really hard. most of the time i tend to close one eye, but still u guys would always think that im not doing any great. And most of the time u keep on blaming me for not doing this and that. im just kinda bored and at times tired. but still i manage to listen and just keep quite to myself. I don't know how long will this continue.

i feel very weak and like crying if i continue typing. 
maybe that's why im behaving this.
puff* puff*

*blog on hiatus*

congrats adek

hey peeps, check out who's fingers is that. *kuwangjar*

haha. HC asked me out. took a ride to C2K ate mee goreng basah, nasi goreng basah and rojak. gahh~

and somehow we manage to see the "bonc" of each of us.

hahhs. we chat like world peace. snapped photos here and there. back then i was from work. Tired but the day was bright day for me. After we ate, i went to 711 and bought my forte chocolates. and lepak at my place till 12 am. hehe. While i was on his 'darling spark' he purposely ride with one hand. Haiya, trauma sekejap. so i took his hand and rest on his bonc* and rest my hand on his lap. He then dared himself to do zigzag on the road and i was like OPPS~ accidentally hugged him using my left shoulder to rest on his left shoulder. he giggled* sempat! settled down to my place, ate the chocolates, chit chat and send me back home.

His handphone kept on ringing, because he was late for his outing at Arab Street with his Sarpinos friends. i heard he got his bashed right after he went down from his bike. gahh~ it was his BIRTHDAY.

and now his lovely phone spoilt, yet sometimes i can't retreive his mms.

sigh..

Being bad girl today skipped classes for sis floorball tournament today.

being supportive for the ITE WEST COLLEGE FLOORBALL.

they played havoc yet sexy.. sweee all the way. nice both gender made to the semifinal.

coolness. ( Adik don't force yourself during the semifinal, all the way adik )

To my dearest classmate: You can start collecting the ST books  by tomorrow after my collection from the printing room. sorry didn't update you guys. See ya in school. :]

 went out with classmates, ate chicken cutlet noodle as usually. and oh ya, don't try fried oyster. so not nice. still very raw masih rase hamisnye.
waited for alus and Am bought their food and packed. i got the un easy feeling letting them know that im heading home,
haiya no wander i felt uneasy. Girls" stuff.


lately been talkative maybe learnt it from someone.
nya~haha.

then hang out again at science centre then played L4D! gerek pe!

WISH U BEST OF LUCK PINK FLAMINGO.

good luck i'll be your support alright.
till here for now. sleepy head away..

photo doesn't relate*

latest photo aka candid captured.

(it was after 'our' work when HC wanna company me home and it was like 0040hr)

thanks ayue.

just got back from surabaya.
lotsa thing to say.
really.
i miss my family my siblings and everyone at SG.
erm.. for now kinda lazy to update.
the degree there was like 5 degree Celsius.
OMG.
freaking cold tell ya.
i was shivering during my so called freezing sleep.
da macam kat peti ais. gahh~~
update again later. me here wanna go to work.


*picas to update soon*